Conscience

The world has achieved brilliance without conscience. ~Omar Bradley

Substance Abuse

You know things must be difficult when you are not a drinker, yet you polish off 5 vodka tonics and still have to stop for a 40 oz. As if you could completely drink away your woes - everyone knows one cannot.

There is a hole, yet it cannot be filled. The one ingredient that will fix the hole is unavailable, so you just have to learn to live with the hole, be wary of it, tread carefully around it, always respect its presence. Its intimidating, this hole. Everytime you go out you are aware of this hole. Normal daily tasks are completed around this hole. This hole is a big hole, and it takes only one thing to fill it, and you ain't got it.

Emotions are attached to this hole. There is a history with it. It goes down and back deeper than anyone else could understand. It's rich with memory and cannot go unnoticed.

The alcohol doesn't drown it. The pot doesn't fade it. The pills don't conquer. The only that the hole can be filled with is love.

Christmas

So yeah, Christmas is here. Everyone jump up and down. Or do whatever you do.

Its just another cold day. Facts show Jesus wasn't even born in December. Why are we celebrating the 25th then?

After New Years I will be distributing copies of American Zeitgeist to all my friends. You have been warned!

Thats it. Just a post to update the blog. Not happy here, not happy anywhere.

He is still out of my reach.

There's something infectious in the snow. Knowing I can look up in the sky and those same snowflakes are falling on you too. Its a vibe for sure, maybe our chakra's are meeting or somewhere on some universal level we are connected. Somehow I reach you, and you reach me back. Sometimes, it feels as if you really are so close I could reach out and stroke your face.

My injustice of a girlfriend has led up to this, and I am facing it in the face.

Train Wreck

Your love in all it's finery

Tear up the darkness all around me

Until I can breathe again

Until I believe again

Cause I'm a train wreck

Waiting to happen

Waiting for someone to come pick me up off the tracks

A wild fire born of frustration

Born of a world, oh, that gets me so high

I've no fear at all

But your eyes like midnight fireflies

Light up the trenches where my heart lies

Until I can see again

Find my way back again

Cause I'm a train wreck

Waiting to happen

Waiting for someone to come pick me up off the tracks

A wild fire born of frustration born of the one love that gets me so high

I've no fear at all

To fall so deep into you

Loose myself completely

In your sweet embrace

All my pain's erased

From your mouth, it's all that I wish

Mercy of your lips, just one kiss

Until I can breathe again

Until I can sing again

Cause I'm a train wreck

Waiting to happen

Waiting for someone to come pick me up off the tracks

A wild fire born of frustration born of the one love that gets me so high

I've no fear at all

To fall so deep into you

Loose myself completely

In your sweet embrace

All my pain's erased

Decriminalization of Marijuana

If we lived in California, posession of 28g or less is a misdemeanor. No time.
In Alaska, having 1oz or less in your home is no penalty, no crime, no time.
In Minnesota, having less than 42g is a misdemeanor, with no time, small fine.
In Iowa, it is a misdemeanor to be caught with anything, up to 6 months, and a hefty $1000 fine. Where do you want to live when you grow up?

MYTH

Marijuana Causes Crime. Marijuana users commit more property offenses than nonusers. Under the influence of marijuana, people become irrational, aggressive, and violent.

FACT
Every serious scholar and government commission examining the relationship between marijuana use and crime has reached the same conclusion: marijuana does not cause crime. The vast majority of marijuana users do not commit crimes other than the crime of possessing marijuana. Among marijuana users who do commit crimes, marijuana plays no causal role. Almost all human and animal studies show that marijuana decreases rather than increases aggression.

LETS DECRIMINALIZE MARIJUANA

Its A Great Day For Ritalin!

A little ADD information, in case you thought it 'went away' as an adult, or 'it was just a childhood thing'.


The ADD adult might have trouble with staying on task, staying organized and procrastinating, just as the Attention Deficit Disorder child does. The Attention Deficit Disorder adult might have trouble maintaining relationships and controlling their mood, just like an ADD or ADHD child.

Common ADD / ADHD characteristics :

An internal sense of anxiety
Impulsive spending habits
Frequent distractions during sex
Frequently misplace the car keys, your purse or wallet or other day-to-day items
Lack of attention to detail
Family history of ADD, learning problems, mood disorders or substance abuse problems
Trouble following the proper channels or chain of commands
An attitude of "read the directions when all else fails"
Frequent traffic violations
Impulsive job changes
Trouble maintaining an organized work and/or home environment
Chronically late or always in a hurry
Frequently overwhelmed by tasks of daily living
Poor financial management and frequent late bills
Procrastination
Spending excessive time at work due to inefficiencies
Inconsistent work performance
Sense of underachievement
Frequent mood swings
Trouble sustaining friendships or intimate relationships
A need to seek high stimulation activities
Tendency toward exaggerated outbursts
Transposing numbers, letters, words
Tendency toward being argumentative
Addictive personality toward food, alcohol, drugs, work and/or gambling
Tendency to worry needlessly and endlessly
Having quick or exaggerated responses to real or imagined slights


Individuals with the disorder can get lost doing unimportant activities, heedless of more important jobs that need to be done. At times, they may have difficulty with their short term memory. They may not fulfill their obligations until the last moment or complete a task only when they feel an external pressure to do so. Symptoms are particularly burdensome to those whose work involves deadlines and/or organizing and recalling complex information.


The disorder can be frustrating to family members and co-workers, who may mistakenly see the problem as one of laziness or irresponsibility.People suffering from ADD often feel unfairly nagged by those around them and sometimes become defiant when confronted with their performance problems. Their underachievement often leads to reduced self-esteem, depression and anxiety. Some undertake psychotherapy to deal with interpersonal conflicts that are caused by the disorder or to gain control over their seeming negligence.


The disorder is associated with dysfunction the frontal part of the brain. Most adults with ADD suffered from Attention Deficit Disorder as children, although frequently the diagnosis was not made at the time. ADD has a strong hereditary component, so ADD in a child is an important indicator that one or both parents may suffer from ADD and vice versa.


Mild or non-specific deficits of executive functions, such as planning and organizing, are common in the general population, particularly among older people. Executive functions may also be affected by injury to the brain, fatigue, alcoholism, Alzheimer's, and other medical disorders. In addition, various psychological disorders, including learning disabilities, schizophrenia, depression, and anxiety, may impair executive dysfunctions.